From Deuteronomy 15-24
Today my heart breaks just a bit
as I read through the scriptures Moses said,
do not create any graven image,
be it made of wood or stone, of any tree
or beast or bird, the moon or sunrise across the world,
“of the likeness of any thing…
lest thou be led to worship
or serve them…
for YHVH hath forbidden thee, and He is
a consuming fire, even a jealous God.”
Because as an artist I create:
drawings, photographs and stained glass
meant to be looked at and seen
gazed through on a sunny day
to be light and bring joy in a dark world.
I’ve been walking with YHVH a few years now
taking one day at a time, discovering His Truth
trying to live my life For Him.
Wondering why for years my desire to write
has once again risen up in me taking over,
to be an author for Him, praying He gives me the words,
each day I try to compose something beautiful for Him
to hopefully touch one person, bringing them to Him.
So as I write this down, my heart aches deeply,
at the thought of leaving my art behind.
Is this Your Will, YHVH, Your desire for my life,
shall I walk away from making any graven images
again in my life, to possibly save a soul?
Is it worth my own, to express my art,
is it worth someone losing their’s while gazing at my art?
Could I be ending your life, by creating a piece of art
for you to gaze at on a cold winters day?
My confusion pours down like the rain washing
my windows, ripples of sadness unfold.
I knew of these scriptures, yet told myself repeatedly
it only applies to idols that you worship.
Look at my gravatar, of an unfinished piece with
Yeshuah on the cross. I DO worship Yeshuah.
But my soul whispers, NO IDOLS AT ALL.
I recently prayed for YHVH to send me a
new camera, so I could take pictures of His Majesty.
Within a week or so, a friend sent me a new camera.
Shall I continue to take photo’s, and just pray no one ever
looks at them in a worshipful way?
My pictures aren’t that great, I know, but still,
it’s a possibility,
someone may pray while gazing at one,
being inspired yet praying NOT to YHVH.
I love to write, for YHVH alone,
but for myself I must admit,
it spills from me in unspoken need
an unending urge, I must write to be complete.
Have I just discovered my true calling from Him?
Maybe I shouldn’t waste my time
trying to make a living by creating art,
but by creating the ONLY art YHVH wants to see.
Oh but it saddens me, deeply my friends,
to discover this Will of His Way.
I reach out again to the Holy Spirit,
to guide me on this path… and pray.